I now have an infection from the canuala,more antibiotics and still no sign of them sending me to Dublin. I want to go home, I am seriously losing my mind 😢😷😭😢😷
So I’m finally being shipped to Dublin in the morning to have my first little heart procedure.It’s a bit scary but to be honest I am so tired fighting to have it done I haven’t the energy to worry about it. So wish me luck and say a couple of prayers if you like and I’ll catch you all soon. ❤❤❤Exhausted Kitty
Just like that the lights gone out, the spark has gone. That spark that sustained me through invasive ductal carcinoma, bone and hepatic metastases. The spark that kept me joking through mastectomy and joyous despite right pleural effusion. Now there is just a tiredness, an apathy infiltrated by deep saddness, occassional anger and sickening self-pity. And she’s not surprised by significant progression of bone metastases to the thoracic, lumbar and sacral spine. It has been three years after all, aren’t I lucky, she thinks…Continue Reading “Spark”
So it doesn’t look like I’ll be going anywhere exciting over Easter😮, maybe just to James’s in Dublin to have fluid drained from round my heart. It’s starting to look like this most probably isn’t an infection😣😢. Not quite sure whats coming😮. I’d kill for a back rub 😢
Back in the Nick😣😢.Last night was terrifying, I couldn’t breath, like drowning. I had another Xray this morning and a little fluid on the lung has turned into a lot of fluid on the lung in a week. I’m wheezing like an 90 year old and even walking a bit leaves me winded. Why is the question, cancer or infection??? Apparently I’m going to be Tapped( lol, thats drained) to see. Trying not to think about it too much, just couldn’t go through another night…Continue Reading “Breathless”
Yeeha! I’m going home 😆🎈🎉😂😀 sorry hypochondria is another symptom that goes hand in hand with cancer. I’m not popping my clogs just yet😄😁😄😁.I have a big nasty bastard of a bug that in my case is a bit more dramatic( but would be a lot worse if i was on chemo). There appears to be no cancer progression, no chemo😄. I’m so happy I just might cry. ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Half the night in A+E, the other half and all day on a trolley in the corridor. Nausea, vomiting, chest infection and potentiall blood clot, and then I go and break my finger before I even leave the house for the hospital. I am so pissed off, fed up, hot and bored, not sure about these meds either they seem to be stealing my spirit, my motivation and my joy! Is it worth it and what next?? 😯 ( big thanks to my wonderfull friend Noirin, who…Continue Reading “A+E”
Today I had a bone scan, horrible radioactive things. It was cancelled last week cos the machine was down and nearly didn’t happen today either for the same reason. As we waited ( about 8 hrs give or take) I got talking to this young woman, unfortunately when you are in this godforsaken game a while you start to recognise some of the signs.Restlessness, a look, nervous joke cracking, and you know there is something up, and it’s new and raw. A young mum it…Continue Reading “Only breast cancer”
Interesting article https://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2012/04/120402162546.htm
While I was at the hospital today I overheard this obviously distressed woman having to make the decision between taking her last round of chemo which has been causing her serious side effects that could be life threatening, and not finishing her current treatment with the risk of having her cancer return. Heartbreaking Death by poison or death by cancer? Why are we still having to make these impossible decisions. 🙁
